Reasons

Too often I get weary in this life fight or find myself in a messy situation that started with good intentions and apostasy looms. These are times when I need a renascent stirring. Today’s post is a piece I wrote to look back on when at a crossroads.  If you don’t have a refocus tool feel free to use this one.

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Because it’s the right thing to do

Because now it’s the right time to do it

Because the innocents have paid more than enough

Because He sent me

Because the raping has to STOP

Because I can

Because they did it to me

Because I have the strength and grace to endure to the end

Because I ain’t skur’d

Because there is no way I can lose

Because I can’t wait any longer

Because of my family

Because silence has an expiration date

Because it no longer binds me and I am free

Because I choose love over fear

 

What are your reasons?

Dealing with Disappointment

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In honor of Mother’s Day, today’s post is a composition of writings from my family. It may seem inappropriate to post about dealing with disappointment around a day of celebration but hopefully it’s more helpful than off-putting. 

 

My response

Helping open and/or grow clinics only to have all those efforts forgotten, dismissed, or even resented has been a big disappointment for me. These disappointments have shown me that the most important things in life never change, such as God’s love, mercy, and grace. I have a wonderful supportive husband, resilient children, and a gift of successfully starting or pulling things out of failure. These disappointments have forced me to rely more on God and draw closer to Him. 

In my life, He is digging up pride, self reliance, and my false notion that I have to constantly strive for better. He is replacing those things with relationship. NOTHING is more important than relationship. 

Philippians 3: 7-9 (MSG)             Because of Christ. Yes, all the things I once thought were so important are gone from my life. Compared to the high privilege of knowing Christ Jesus as my Master, firsthand, everything I once thought I had going for me is insignificant—dog dung. I’ve dumped it all in the trash so that I could embrace Christ and be embraced by him.I didn’t want some petty, inferior brand of righteousness that comes from keeping a list of rules when I could get the robust kind that comes from trusting Christ—God’s righteousness.

Don’t get me wrong, He is calling us higher, but He wants us to know promotion comes from Him and we’re to merely walk this life out in faith and ENJOY! 
2 Timothy 1:9-10 (MSG)             We can only keep on going, after all, by the power of God, who first saved us and then called us to this holy work. We had nothing to do with it. It was all his idea, a gift prepared for us in Jesus long before we knew anything about it. But we know it now. Since the appearance of our Savior, nothing could be plainer: death defeated, life vindicated in a steady blaze of light, all through the work of Jesus.

Today I realized that my favorite vacation spot is in His presence, followed closely by being in my husband’s arms. 

 

 

14 yo daughter

One thing in my life that has been a disappointment is what feels like constant moving. Even though having to move has been a tough experience, it has helped me adapt to new people and new places. It has taught me that whatever environment you’re in there will always be the same types of people and same situations. It’s helped me mature and strengthened my relationship with my family. I believe God has put this in my life to help me learn how build relationships and adapt to new environments. This has brought me closer to trusting God with any issues I have, since He has always been a constant.

 

11 yo daughter

One thing that was a disappointment that happened in my life was moving away from Gastonia. I pictured myself and my family living there until John went to college or longer. I loved my friends and they loved me, my teachers were nice, and my experiences there were amazing. The last place I want to go and think I would go is were I am today and that just says to expect the unexpected.

Husband’s response

Disappointment – I didn’t get into medical school the first two times I applied.  I was rejected by about 14 medical schools in all.  I wasn’t sure if I would ever be a doctor for a few years.  I ended up doing a lot of other things that helped me grow.  If I had been accepted the first two times, I might not have met Mayisha and we may not have ever had 3 awesome children.

God has given me a new direction in life both with our great family and my job.  With the family I am to give thematic and direct guidance as a vehicle for wisdom in a manner that brings balance and harmony to their souls.  At work I have a job that directly impacts over 80,000 lives and indirectly impacts 100,000s.  If I think too much about how a mistake that I could make may end up causing harm to them, I get nervous. 

So, in both family and work, I ask God to guide my walk and show others and myself the journey of a thousand smiles.  Inside your heart is the calming hug of God, he is touching us . . . Let’s embrace the love.

 

How do you approach and deal with disappointment?